I hold my pencil above the paper longing to draw, yet the page remains white, image-less. I search for inspiration, still nothing comes. I need to let my feelings out in a creation of pencil strokes, but how can I when I don't know what I'm feeling. I'm not depressed, nor am I happy. I can't write my feelings, words for them have abandoned me long ago. My new outlet was drawing and even now its failing me. The page taunts me with it's nothingness, or maybe that's my feelings, nothing. Can you feel nothing? Would you be able to look at this paper before me and know that's what I feel? Nothing... How can I draw nothing?...
~ Gwendolyn Austin
Saturday, March 15, 2014
It's crazy what some exercise and determination can do to your day. This morning I went to the gym, and did some laps in the pool to get ready for a swim instructor training I have in a week. At the beginning I was having trouble with getting in a whole lap of front crawl, I kept getting water in my mouth. I had a moment of panic, and had to pause and do breaststroke instead. For a while I just did breaststroke and back crawl. I wasn't sure of myself, front crawl has always been the hardest stroke for me. Finally when I was taking a breather I stared at the other end of the pool and told myself I could get there doing front crawl, I couldn't get worst then a mouthful of water and have to stop for a second, but I WAS going to get to the end. So put my goggles on and took off, and I made it with out stopping! After that my whole day went by great! Just some determination in myself can boost my confidence in my life.
Until next time!
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Sometime days just seem lifeless, no matter what you do your day is dull and drawn out. Today was one of those days. Sleep was restless, and I got out of bed earlier then I usually do on Wednesday. I went to the orthodontics got braces on for the second time, did a short work out, and watched a movie. Occasionally, I would eat some soft food that isn't very substantial. That was my usual boring day, nothing to report about.