Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Help Me to Surrender


I realize I have be holding on to things, Money, Relationships, my dreams and basically my whole life. And I realize that I need to surrender these to you. That I need to surrender everything to you, and take up the cross. To take on your mission, and live this life of yours following you. I don't want to be of the world, I want to be yours. Take me Lord! Change me, lead me on the path to follow after you. Help me to live my life in total surrender. I realize I'm a person who trends to want control, help me to surrender to you. I want to one day be kneeling before you and hear you say the words "Well done." I know that it will be worth it. God, Help me surrender!

~Your daughter

Saturday, April 4, 2015

A Chance at a Home Run

I'm never going to feel ready, for my trip, for marriage, for life. No matter how I prepare or lack of (cough), I'm never going to feel completely ready for the tasks or changes in life. Like a batter at home plate, the baseball is never going to be thrown at you in a straight line. It's going to curve, it may even have an unexpected spin. The thing is you're not just going pull back and let the chance at a home run stop you from swinging your best shot back.

Just for the record I'm not a baseball player, so my analogy is probably slightly flawed to a professional, but it was the best I could think of.  : P


Sunday, February 1, 2015

So Different, Yet So Right

I don't know how to put words to what this is like. I never thought love could be like this. It's not a giddy bubbly warm type of love that comes and goes (although I do get get warm and giddy sometimes), It's not feelings that are just on the surface, this is emotions coming from deep underneath. I don't know how long these emotions have been building. Now that I've experienced this love I know that this is real. Like this quote from The Giver "Feelings are just meaning on the surface, but emotions are primal." ~Lois Lowry. I don't think this love is going to drift away, it's primal. I love him and I may just love him till forever.